Shiney New Blog

I am so excited to feel my bloging fingers return to the keyboard, and am bursting with new ideas for midwifery and birth related posts!  It's been too long.....

I am planning to start 'what I have been reading' posts, sharing what's on my book shelves with you, as well as 'how to 'posts on midwifery skills (primarily aimed at students) and of course my usual reflections on current topics.

Speaking of which, we are in October.  October.... the impending end of Independent Midwifery as we know it.  Of course, as with all things in life, the goal posts have changed and the NMC confirmed this week that there is a delay in the implementation of the new legislation and we now have until February.  In the meantime, IMUK, who have been working incredibly hard over the summer months and have found a product that is a solution to the insurance fiasco, continues to beaver away at getting insurance in place long before that deadline (we very much hope that the dear DoH do their bit and help us on our way) .  You can keep up to date here.

Pretty knitted things

Exciting, turbulent, history changing times lay ahead; and it is down to the passionate and strong midwives and supporters that there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Women have always had a strong influence in the course of history; this year was the 100th anniversary of the death of Emily Davison, the suffragette who threw herself under a horse; I feel I am part of a modern suffragette movement (although I am not throwing myself under a horse), not one working to get the vote, but one to get a basic human right to know and choose your midwife as a normal part of the childbearing continuum.  I am a feminist - and rightly proud.  Okay, I am a knitting feminist, and rightly proud.  Okay, I am a knitting, mascara wearing, girl-who-likes-pretty things feminist, and rightly proud.

Mascara wearing midwife on a mission

Anyway world, watch out.  Or you may have a bunch of media wielding, modern suffragettes playing havoc with your his(her)story; and it might not be pretty or knitted.

angela x

Why I Campaign.....

Oh how I have missed blogging: I have so many ideas I want to share, so many thoughts I want to get down, so many words that need to be committed to the page.  I just don't have the time or space to do it at present..........

.....so instead, I recently made a 'vlog' - which I share with you now.  Hopefully this will help you see why blogging has had to slow for a bit; but hang in there with me - I will be back to blogging as soon as I can!

angela x

Life 'on-call' - making it work.

Recently, this question was posted on the IMUK Facebook page:

"I am really interested in the work/ life balance for family and relationships when on call all the time. How does it work?"

A really good question, and perhaps a concern that prevents people from working as an IM (insurance issues aside).  So this blog is for all you midwives, student midwives and aspiring midwives about the reality of life on-call and how midwives (IMs, NHS case-loading midwives, commissioned groups of midwives) find it not only workable, but balanced, rewarding, and fulfilling.

I have worked on call since October 2007; I have taken periods off, I've had periods where I have been on my knees, I have missed some family birthdays, I have even missed a family break.  There have been times I have totally resented it (and even tried to side-step for a bit), however the freedom to manage my working life, the autonomy I have as a midwife, the joy of seeing a family grow as you support the mother and empower her, outweighs the days when being 'on-call' can feel too much.

Working Hours
Developing my own self-imposed 'working times' was one of the first things I had to learn: initially I didn't do this as I was just so excited to provide the care I was offering.  What I quickly learnt was that not having my own 'boundaries' made me tired and resentful.  So now, I never work Sundays unless I am at a birth or it is early postnatal days; Sundays is family day, TV day, reading day; I won't answer texts (unless urgent) or check facebook / emails or make routine appointments.  I stipulate this to clients at booking and I have found that most women fully respect this.  My working 'hours' are 8am - 8pm, and only women in labour or urgent issues get my attention.  I home educate so most of my appointments are late in the afternoon so I can be there for my family.

Switching-Off
This is a real skill that takes time to develop; early in my IM career if a woman was 'imminent', getting to sleep was a problem.  What I have learnt in my time on-call is interesting; if I have not been called by 10pm, then I am very unlikely to be called out in the middle of the night.  I may get an early morning call, or a late evening call, but, in almost 6 years and caring for over 50 women, I have only been called out in the middle of the night a few times.  So if I go to bed without a call, I feel quite confident that I will get a full-nights sleep.

I have also learnt to tell women the days that are really inconvenient to me.... always spoken light-heartedly and with a smile, but since doing this women seem less likely to birth on those days.  I put it down the Oxytocin Factor - if they are worried about me not being there they release adrenaline and don't labour!  I only do this for really important things, like family birthdays and so forth - and of course I will be there if the baby decides otherwise anyway!

Having a Social Life
This was something else I struggled with; frightened to make commitments in case I got 'the call'.  Now, I just live life 'as usual'; I tend to drive myself places so I have the car if needed, women are asked to let me know if they think things are 'happening' so I can get home / sort my family/ make a decision about whether to go or not.  Generally, I will stay close-ish to home.  My family are really supportive and don't tend to mind too much if I can't make something; they do of-course have times when they feel the pressure of my work, but because there is so much time when I am available, around and participating, they get over it quickly.

Friends also know that sometimes I will cancel things last minute - but I guess knowing their friend is attending a birth must seem quite cool.  They certainly like to hear the birth story later!

Drinking is of course a bit of a no-no; turning up pissed to a birth might not be the safest way of practising.  I do have the occasional small glass of wine, and I like to make up for it when I am 'off-call'; personally I think my liver enjoys the time off.  And it saves me money.

The 'best-bits'
Supporting women and knowing what is important to them; not having to 'quickly' read notes and get to know the woman and her 'preferences'; practising 'hands-off' autonomous midwifery; managing my workload (choosing my hours outside of births); drinking tea and laughing with clients; continuity of care; taking my children to meet the new baby; wearing my own clothes (silly, but I hate tunics - so 'official'); being my own boss; lie-ins - no early shifts for me!; feeling proud of what I do; meeting fellow IM's and sharing stories and skills; meeting students - and learning from them as they do from me; having time with my family when I choose to; not waiting for the 'off-duty' to come out; catching babies with inquisitive assistants.......

The list is end-less.  Working this way is not always perfect, and there may be times in my life when working within the NHS will be the right thing at that time and having 'set' hours will be what I need.  Until that time, I will choose to work in this way - and fight to work in this way.

So I hope this answers the question for you - about what it's really like..... and maybe it might help you answer this question on survey monkey:

Would you work as a self-employed midwife?


angela xx

Independent Midwifery: Dispelling the Myths

"I bet your clients are really demanding?".  Sigh.  Nope, not usually.  In fact, I find the hardest bit of being an IM is dealing with such misconceptions and answering questions (from an NHS midwife) as that one.  I wrote previously about 'what we do', now however, it is time to dispel some myths about Independent Midwives (IM's):

IM's are Maverick and Risky
On the contrary; IM's have a large number of women who would be considered 'high risk' within the NHS and as such are seeking a midwife who will support them in their informed choices.  This means careful thought and planning, often involving a Supervisor of Midwives to help arrange the appropriate care.  It means being up-to-date with the latest research so that we can provide safe, effective practice.  There are risks to our job; but we work hard to keep these to a minimum whilst supporting women fully in their choices.

Women who use IM's are wealthy
Different women, from different backgrounds and with differing levels of personal income book with IM's.  Yes, I have had clients whose disposable income is enviable, however the vast majority of my clients have to work hard to find the money for my fees.  Or they simply can not find the money and then we try to work something out.  For most clients, their priority is to book with a midwife whom they know and trust  - and this often means making huge personal sacrifices.

IM's earn 'loads of money'
You can see that in the shiny 2005 Citroen Picasso I drive, and all the holidays I take - NOT!  Out of my fees I have to pay for my equipment, administration costs, petrol, training updates, tax, holiday 'pay' (being self-employed means when I am not working I am not earning), journal subscriptions,  etc etc.  IMs really do not earn huge sums - and we really do earn our money!  24-on call is not an 'easy' option and can take it's toll on family, friends and day-to-day life.

IM's Clients are demanding
If wanting to have one-to-one care with a midwife you know and trust, appointments in your own home, and feeling supported in your choices is considered 'demanding' then yep, my clients are very very demanding.  I do find however that this standard of care pays dividends in normal outcomes, high breastfeeding rates and family satisfaction.  And I always get tea and cake (hence my expanding waist line).  Women are really so demanding!

IM's don't want insurance
We do, we do, we do!  We just can't get it!  Honestly, every time you go to a birth, to hear the little voice on your shoulder saying 'this could be the one that costs your home' is not fun!  We do it because we can (not for much longer), we do it because we care, we do it because midwifery services should not be a 'one size fits all' option.  I do it for myself (terribly selfish), but knowing who I am going out to when I get called to a birth makes me feel like a safe practitioner.  Plus, I don't have to get to know the woman and her family, instead I can just offer my full attention and be 'with woman'.  It's fantastic.

Independent Midwifery is not for everyone, just as being a labour ward midwife, or a consultant midwife is not for everyone.  The important thing is that just as women should have choice, so too should midwives.  

There are many myths around Independent Midwifery and IM's, and the one that is most concerning is that is does not matter if we are no longer able to practice.  The demise of IMs will have catastrophic affects, and midwives within the NHS will find that their autonomy will be significantly threatened - the RCM know this and just continue to play footise with a government that is calling the shots.   Just look to countries where midwifery has been persecuted in this way, and then see how many midwives there are.  It is worrying.

Independent Midwifery must survive - and you can help.  You can share this blog with everyone and anyone who has an interest in midwifery or birth.  You can tell people the TRUTH about IM's.  You can watch 'Home Delivery' on March 21st and see how we work.  You can join our facebook page and learn more.  Women matter - IM's do too.

angela xx

Call the Midwife – or call a midwife you know and trust?

I enjoyed reading Sarah Johnson’s recent blog post on call the midwife.  I LOVE call the midwife and read the books when I was student; how I dreamed of working in that way – a local midwife, on her local patch, working with the local women, caring for them in their own homes.   

For most midwives, this way of working is a million miles away from the reality of midwifery care within the NHS; birth at home is no longer the ‘norm’, midwives work in large centralised units, women are very unlikely to be cared for by a midwife they have ever met, normal birth rates are incredibly low and the use of analgesia and the associated risks and side effects high.  Sarah suggests that birth stools are ‘standardised equipment’ in units, and women birth in up-right positions: statistics suggest otherwise, with the NCT citing in their research that less than 40% of women are encouraged to be mobile, upright and off the bed and their backs.  I myself have visited units where birth stools may be quietly gathering dust in the corner, where huge, shiney new units are built with just one ‘token gesture’  birth pool (despite NICE guidance stating that birth pools should be available to all women as an effective form of pain relief) and where one-to-one care is not always achieved for women in labour.   The NHS offers the best it can on a shrinking budget, with a hard working yet disillusioned work force, with a growing population, and with women presenting with more and more complicated pregnancies. 

My dream of practising as a 1950’s midwife might not quite have come to fruition, but I am honoured to have carved a way of working which comes as close as possible: I care for the same woman throughout her pregnancy, birth and postnatal period; I care for women and families in their own home; I attend home births (and follow the woman into hospital if plans change).  I may not have a bike (and am about to invest in a 4x4 to make work life easier), but I do carry my own equipment and have a big ‘Midwife on Call’ sign to hang on my dashboard when I am with a woman in labour! 

When a woman in my care goes into labour, they can call a midwife – they can call a midwife they know and they trust, who will be by their side until their baby is tucked up safely in their arms, who knows all about them and what is important to them.  That is Independent Midwifery – the recognised gold standard of care, a choice for women outside of the NHS.  And it is under threat.  Just as that 1950’s midwife is no longer recognisable, so too, might be Independent Midwives; EU directives, insurance issues, and a government failing to deliver on its promise to really offer choice are seeing to that.

So, women, mothers, midwives, fathers, grandparents – if you LOVE Call the Midwife like me, if you LOVE the idea of calling a midwife you know, if you LOVE the idea of care in the home being the norm, then make sure you make a call to your local MP and tell them that!

You can find out more about this issue by visiting www.northsurreymidwives.co.uk

fear + loneliness = Brave?

I have often been told that I am 'brave' for choosing to be an Independent Midwife; I wrote about this a long time ago and can honestly say I have never felt brave, or really understood why fellow midwifery colleagues consider me such.  I am just a midwife, working to support women, some courageous and strong, some needing support to find their inner strength, but all who wish to have the bulk of their care outside of the NHS system, with a midwife they know and trust.

I attended a beautiful home birth this week; I was not anticipating to be the primary midwife, but the woman's own midwife was caught in Jury service and unable to attend. I gathered myself together and headed off to the birth - I knew the woman and her family having supported them as the second midwife with their first baby.  As always, I mentally prepared myself, and drew inner strength and calmness into my being.  I was not aware that I would be doing that many times in the course of the woman's labour..........

Birth works: if you follow my blog you will know that this belief is deep in my inner core.  BUT, and there is always a BUT in nature, sometimes birth changes and sometimes nature will challenge us, humble us and remind us that she is a force that we cannot always control, always predict, always guarantee.  After the baby made its way earth-side (a beautiful, calm, wonderful HVBAC), the woman's body was not (for whatever reason) willing to release the placenta; I was concerned.  Too much bleeding necessitated a decision to transfer; a serious maternal obstetric haemorrhage occurred,  a wonderful team of NHS staff worked very hard to save a very compromised mother.  And a very shaken midwife was left holding the baby...... until he was safely tucked back with his mother later on that day.

So, back to my 'bravery'; it was with a sudden clarity that I understood why people believe me to be brave - and it has nothing to do with me.  As I watched the team work around the woman (and I was in total awe of the NHS staff and so very, very grateful that when obstetric care was needed, we had access to it), as I supported her, reassured her, even prayed for her, I have never felt so alone in all my life; the safety net of the NHS is a strong one.    Perhaps this is the reason midwives do not challenge guidelines, or policies not based on evidence; perhaps this is why the vice on midwifery is so strong.  Not that I am brave, but because the 'safety' of working within the NHS is so strong - and watching that team, I think I understood why people would not want to 'risk' that.  Being the lone voice, choosing to leave that safety net, to be fully autonomous, to accept full accountability..... can be very lonely indeed.  The fear of loneliness is why people believe I am brave.

I am not 'brave' for choosing to be an Independent Midwife; it is a wonderful way of working.  It is 'the gold standard of care'.  It is rewarding, challenging, exciting, scary, bumpy, amazing, tiring.  It is working to keep birth normal - and safe. I am not brave...... but if more midwives were given the support to work outside of the NHS, if the government fully supported choice and continuity, if the RCM would acknowledge a group of midwives who work outside of the system, it might be a little less lonely.

angela xx

He who is brave is free. 

Lucius Annaeus Seneca 

Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/l/luciusanna121145.html#vPE1uJcEvV29CUTm.99 

Birth Works

There have been some awesome blogs this week from Midwives and from Women, as well as some interesting news headlines; I love reading blogs that inspire me, challenge me, and get more women and midwives thinking about birth and midwifery skills.

Last week I facilitated an 'Inspirational Birth' Study day, covering physiological birth: I have wanted to run this study day for a while, but when it came to planning the actual content for the day, I found myself procrastinating.  Fear in part; worry that I didn't know enough to fill a 6 hour day; concern that I wouldn't convey the message I was hoping too.....as it turned out it was a great day: I had forgotten actually just how much I have learnt in my journey as an Independent Midwife, and watching the 'light bulb' moments was very rewarding for me as a facilitator.  

In the current midwifery climate, there is little scope for physiological birth - and I don't state that lightly, as I know that is a direct criticism of maternity services.  How do I justify that statement?  Women are designed to give birth; sometimes, in some circumstances, some women may need some help (thank you Mary Cronk for that beautiful phrase), BUT we know that the vast majority of women are NOThaving normal, straightforward births - and even fewer are experiencing physiological birth  (there is a difference).  Birth Works, but it needs certain conditions, support and understanding for that to happen.  Maternity services in the UK are at breaking point: a rising birth rate and too few midwives (or cuts in services) means that women are not guaranteed one-to-one care in labour; women do not have time to build a relationship with a midwife that facilitates trust; hospitals have policies that are not conducive to physiological birth - but are conducive to intervention and time management; and midwives are not challenged on practise that is outdated and not evidence based (valsalva for one).

In my mind, there are a few issues that continue to confound and prevent change;

1. The demise of midwifery care outside of the NHS institution
2. The continued attack on women and midwives who choose to work with physiological birth
3. That we are no longer teaching our daughters to be feminists (a dirty word in modern society)

Take for example the Daily Mail article this week on women's experience of traumatic birth; then read the comments.  Women attacking women, men attacking women, women sharing very distressing experiences - and many comments indicating 'doctor knows best and women should be grateful' .

Birth is hard work; it is not perfect, sometimes it is not 'beautiful', sometimes it is down right mean; that is birth.  This is NOT however the 'care' that may be inflicted, the unkindness of medical staff or the paternalistic attitude of doctors.  What women want is a positive experience of birth - however that birth may unfold, and having a midwife by your side who understands, supports and believes in birth and whom the woman knows and trusts can make a huge difference to that experience.  That is not too much to ask.

Birth Works - but we have forgotten this.  Instead, we focus on the 'what if's', how to 'manage' birth, how to 'save' women from pain; we have lost trust in birth and have made hospitals and the NHS the saving grace of birth - as opposed to utilising it as and when is necessary - ensuring resources and first rate care are available for women who need it (I for one have been grateful for their expertise when women in my care have needed it).  We have also de-skilled midwives and on a global level we continue to allow midwifery to be quashed, undermined, de-valued and not recognised for the amazing profession it is.  Midwifery and women are controlled -  Freedom for Birth highlighted some of these issues.

Independent Midwifery has enabled me to hone and develop my skills in physiological birth; I already had the belief and passion for normal birth, but had to work very hard in my NHS training to fully experience it.  As an IM, I want to share my passion, my knowledge, my skills (and I still have much to learn and hopefully will never stop learning) - but come October my right to work as an IM will be outlawed - another blog to follow on that.  For now, I shall continue to work outside of the NHS, I shall continue to support physiological birth at every opportunity, and I will aim to inspire my own daughters to be proud to be a feminist.

Birth Works; Women Work; Midwifery Works.

angela xx