A week in the life

This week has been a very special week for me as an IM, and I was very honoured and privileged to receive third place in the BJM Community Midwife of the Year awards.

It was a spectacular evening hosted by the British Journal of Midwifery and a real highlight in the midwifery year; a time when midwives from all arenas can be acknowledged for all the hard work they do - and a wonderful opportunity to wash of the placenta and booby milk, get dressed up, and let our hair down!

Being an independent midwife is hard work; there is an awful lot that goes on behind the scenes and being on call 24/7 is not always easy.  It is however incredibly rewarding, and after heading up to collect my certificate on Monday night, I was reminded of some of the really hard times over the past few years when IMUK worked hard to retain independent midwifery and the right for women to choose.  During that time, I made a 'Week in the Life' video to use at an IMUK open day to highlight the work we do and the way we do it.  I am really pleased to share this video with you now:

I love being a midwife (mostly) and do feel very privileged to work in this way.  I am not sure that being on-call will be right for me forever, and I do grow weary of it at times.  However, I think that probably applies to many of the different midwifery avenues that are out there: any job that gives of yourself can lead to burn out and fatigue - which is why it is so important that we look after ourselves - and are looked after (Jeremy Hunt take note).

So thank you BJM for my award, thank you women for sharing your lives with me, and thank you to everyone who supported the campaign to save IM's and kept us going!

angela xx

"Midwives are best placed to make a real difference in the woman's overall experience - and I am privileged when I get invited in by the family to provide that care"

Angela Horler 

New Year Pop

A few months ago, a little add popped up on my computer.  I clicked it away without a thought.  A little later it popped up again; again, I clicked it away, thinking nothing of it other than it 'being annoying'.  A few days later, sure enough the advert appeared again.... and again.... and again.  I 'quickly' clicked them away and carried on with my work.  Slowly, over time, these adverts became a regular part of my day, and I stopped really thinking about them.  Just methodically removed them and carried on with my tasks: pop - click - pop - click - pop - click (getting the picture).  (If you are wondering what this has to do with midwifery - bare with me, it will make sense.)

Two weeks ago, my computer needed an overhaul; those annoying little ads had grown so much, that I could no longer log on to my blog (hence no posts for a while), I could not move on the internet without being directed to sites I did not wish to visit  (er, no I do not need Viagra thank you) and my working time at the computer ground to a halt.

Reflecting on this (and here is the midwifery link) made me think about how small interventions in midwifery practise have become a routine part of our care.  Let's take the vaginal examination (VE) for example; these are now so routine that we no longer even see them as an intervention, and yet, they can interfere so much in a woman's birth that they can slow and grind a labour down to a halt (see what I did there?).

As midwives, we are considered 'autonomous practitioners'; this means that we work to evidence base and to the woman's needs.  There is no evidence to support routine vaginal examinations and whilst they can help understand the progress in labour, most women find them invasive and unpleasant.  Encouraging the woman to 'pop' onto the bed, the 'quick' VE, the repeat of this process at routine intervals, in my opinion, slowly interferes with the midwives care and her understanding of 'normal' progress in labour, and most significantly affects the woman's trust in her body, until eventually the labour grinds to a halt and needs an overhaul (or caesarean) - just like my computer.

This year I have been blessed to attended 15 women in labour: only 6 of those women required a VE to support plans around their labour and birth.  I promised to 'share the skills' previously, but the problems with my computer jaded my work, distracted me from writing and prevented me for being 'with computer'.  Yet it took a real crisis before I addressed and faced up to the problem: it was just easier to keep pushing the problem away.  Sound familiar?

2013 has been a year of facing up to a huge problem: the demise of Independent Midwifery.  Over the past 12 months, I have been involved in the odious task of campaigning to save IMs, to save my livelihood, to save choice for women and to save a group of midwives who believe in true autonomy.  It was a problem I did not want to face up to: it is a problem that many midwives are not facing up to, and it is a problem that the Government does not wish to face (I think they hope we will all  just go away).

If midwifery is to remain a strong profession, then we need midwives to have the choice to work independently.  As we enter 2014, I feel optimistic and positive that this year will herald a change for Midwifery and that midwives will reclaim their profession.  I feel confident that I will be able to continue to practise in a way that supports women without the routine use of interventions, and that working in this way will not 'grind to a halt'.  And mostly, I look forward to not campaigning anymore - but rather to getting back to what I love most.  Being 'With Woman'.

What will your 2014 pop-up for you?

Shiney New Blog

I am so excited to feel my bloging fingers return to the keyboard, and am bursting with new ideas for midwifery and birth related posts!  It's been too long.....

I am planning to start 'what I have been reading' posts, sharing what's on my book shelves with you, as well as 'how to 'posts on midwifery skills (primarily aimed at students) and of course my usual reflections on current topics.

Speaking of which, we are in October.  October.... the impending end of Independent Midwifery as we know it.  Of course, as with all things in life, the goal posts have changed and the NMC confirmed this week that there is a delay in the implementation of the new legislation and we now have until February.  In the meantime, IMUK, who have been working incredibly hard over the summer months and have found a product that is a solution to the insurance fiasco, continues to beaver away at getting insurance in place long before that deadline (we very much hope that the dear DoH do their bit and help us on our way) .  You can keep up to date here.

Pretty knitted things

Exciting, turbulent, history changing times lay ahead; and it is down to the passionate and strong midwives and supporters that there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Women have always had a strong influence in the course of history; this year was the 100th anniversary of the death of Emily Davison, the suffragette who threw herself under a horse; I feel I am part of a modern suffragette movement (although I am not throwing myself under a horse), not one working to get the vote, but one to get a basic human right to know and choose your midwife as a normal part of the childbearing continuum.  I am a feminist - and rightly proud.  Okay, I am a knitting feminist, and rightly proud.  Okay, I am a knitting, mascara wearing, girl-who-likes-pretty things feminist, and rightly proud.

Mascara wearing midwife on a mission

Anyway world, watch out.  Or you may have a bunch of media wielding, modern suffragettes playing havoc with your his(her)story; and it might not be pretty or knitted.

angela x

Why I Campaign.....

Oh how I have missed blogging: I have so many ideas I want to share, so many thoughts I want to get down, so many words that need to be committed to the page.  I just don't have the time or space to do it at present..........

.....so instead, I recently made a 'vlog' - which I share with you now.  Hopefully this will help you see why blogging has had to slow for a bit; but hang in there with me - I will be back to blogging as soon as I can!

angela x